Marriage post no. 1

Is it a good sign?
He didn't seem to falter at the mention of marriage.
Hmm..maybe not, the other jerk who left me didn't falter too. When did I have enough sample size to do this statistical analysis? And this self conversation could go on forever, like love me, love me not petals.

When did this become such a big issue to me?
I named this post "Marriage post no.1", expecting that I would be talking A LOT about it in my blog. Come on, you are reading a blog written by a woman after her thirties and not married. Marriage occupies as much as my brain does when guys think about sex, I think.

Fuck the social pressure, but what happens to my womb? it is withering as I spend my time writing this post rather than do something productive with it. I cant have kids with my pretty features when I get old!

Are you sure you want kids? Those loud, little drunk humans who only cares about their own well being? Nobody could give me very logical answer to why I would need to produce and raise one of those, all they said was it would be a life changing experience. Something you would only appreciate after you have been through it.

So there, I have my reason. A hearsay.
I want to get married to have kids.